Cold As You

I always wanted to go the beach.

But these few days, the temperature is getting lower and strong wind is blowing all the time.

Seems like plan to beach need to be cancelled and to be forgotten, for sometimes.

Life has been good. Too much work to catch up with. Exam is coming but none of the preparation are completely done yet. Tried to be productive today and good thing is that the result is not that disappointing. At least, done some part of it.

Cold weather, low temperature. I feel like it is already winter season now because the temperature drops to 13 degree@.@ which is really not my cup of tea. Mood swing, pimple face, weight gained. I hate this weather, this moment, this stage. That's too much that i couldn't let go but i should have.

There's a trip to Bundanoom tomorrow. Another cold place. It is a challenge to me. An obstacle to be faced. I will never forget the coldness in Melbourne two years ago, where i returned by myself, give up the trip halfway, just because of the coldness that i can't bear with. Cold, something that i think it shouldn't have exist in my life.

There's too much distraction, lots of moments where there's a strong urge, asking me to give up.

Still, i am holding on. Only when the time comes, when i don't care for it anymore, when i am okay for losing it, not giving up, but i will letting go.

willingly.

And at that point, there will be no point of return. Anymore.

Waiting is not a good idea. Especially when the duration of waiting is too uncertain. And one day, everybody get tired. That's the end of story.