Sunday Entry

Background Music: More Than This by One Direction

Time: 5.25pm

Weather: Sunny, Winter, 15 Celcius Degree

Sunday

20/July.

That morning, four of us had brunch together at this place called 'Two Five'. It was a very lovely morning, except the crazy low temperature that slightly affected my mood.

We talked about things and feelings. We managed to break the ice. The more I observed, the more I feel that things / behaviors that some others did in front of us, maybe it was hard to be understood at first. But they did it with a reason, with a good intention behind. Just because our methods and the way we take things are different. 

Opened up brought us closer to each other. How close? I'm not too sure. Perhaps a step closer than previous. But it gave you some insights or ideas that you might not came across before. It was a good conversation. I get to know the person more, in a better way.

For the past two days, I could see that I get annoyed easily for harsh word spoken by someone here. I tried to suppress my unpleasant feelings. I tried to not feel annoyed by things she said. I wasn't sure of the reason I get annoyed. Feelings aroused too quickly that I couldn't able to label it well. Angry? Annoyed? hmm~ Maybe I just need a break from her haha because I don't feel like getting myself in a field with too much negativity. It will drag me down. 

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Happy thing today: 

I went to monastery for scripture class again. Today I taught them the Buddhist Flag. At first it sounded like a very boring topic to me HAHA. But oh, I think I had fun. Despite kids today were quite noisy in the class, not sure is it because they just came back from holiday o.O situation was a bit chaotic. There were good students who really paying attention in the class too. Kids are just too adorable! One simple smile, one simple thing said, one simple thought, kids are just simple and easy. I started to fall in love with time spent in class. I started to love teaching kids more and more. But I'm not sure why am I keep pushing it away actually? Hmm~ I am such a contradicting person. 

I taught a class of 10-12. But I am a student who learn from all the lovely kids in class too. They gave me this incredible experience of speaking in front of the class, teach them about how to be a good person, at the same time, remind myself about the principle in life too. In this polluted world, I think unavoidably I had doubts on the issue of 'being a good person' sometimes. But telling kids how to be a good person has amazingly inspired me in someway. From the way they spoke, things that they said, it made me feel the world could actually be simple and beautiful. It's our mind. Adult's mind, who thought they know everything, as if they know what they are doing. Do we?

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The other day, a friend talked to me about equanimity. 

Equanimity = unshakable balance in mind.

Dhamma is fun, deep, inspiring and hopeful. 

He said he treated all his friends equally and sincerely, there is no hierarchy of friendship in his world.

Hierarchy of friendship. You know, like that kind of billboard where you have a picture of which of your friends are in which category. Best friend, close friend, hi-bye friend, moderate close friend etc. HAHA! Or is this just a girl's thing? and this is how they define female is complicated? Whoops. He said he wouldn't differentiate his friends in this way. All friends are in same level to him and there is no such thing as hierarchy/group/category in his definition of friends. Why? Because just to be fair, and who we are to differentiate them? 

Hmm. I find it true and I do agree. But of course there are some friends that I would really like to appreciate them more, not without reason. It could be due to time that we spent together were more compared to some others, it could be due to experiences that we had which brought us closer than others, it could be just fate. Sometimes you just find it easier to click with certain people that you just knew for not long, and you feel that she/he is just like a long-lost friend. 

to be continued....

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